3:43am

I wanted to wait for a little, or at least leave this on paper but I don't think I am able to do that for the sake of the dream that was bestowed upon me. Whether it be of a time to come, where familiar faces seem to show up and starts cursing me by name, and all misunderstandings remains as they shouldn't be. Here is a flash of what, and who was there, you have to understand that these are flashes I can remember clearly from what I have seen in this nightmare of a dream (full names are avoided in order to maintain animosity and keep this personal)

• I was in a restaurant setting, waiting for orders to come in, and B. and J. was there, and a couple of the servers from LA Chefs were there too (namely T. cause her face was clear, the rest are a blur now), from what I've gathered I seem to be the only one working, the rest just stood around and talking.
•  J. came into the restaurant with someone (I do not know who), and made an order.
• J. stood by watching me as I started making the meals but I started to get crowded with no preparations of the day done (no water boiling, no vegetables ready to be cooked, the only thing I saw and made were the proteins for the meals) and I had some onions on the stove to be caramelized for garnish.
• I ran around the whole building in search of vegetables, and into the basement. I have to say this part of the story gets really blurry. As I opened the door into the storeroom it opens up into a whole other building. Something like the huge mall in the place I grew up in.
• This is when I saw M. (in the basement), and she was sitting on a sofa reading her book, and she saw me, and stood up, and started screaming on top of her lungs yelling "why are you here? why are you stalking me? please leave me alone!!" As I was crazy with looking for ingredients, I was dumbstruck with what she said, and certainly I kept calm and gladly one of her friends was there to talk to me, and I explained everything to her.
• After all that I started to head back to inform them I cannot find anything for vegetables and this is when I saw an old man choking and an old lady performing the heimlich, which was in vain and then another old man helped performed it. I wanted to stop and help but I have to run back to line.
• I ran up the stairs and down corridors and it seemed to go on forever, and finally I got back into the kitchen, there as I stood in the door, B. handed me all my kitchen equipments and told me to go home and I was fired from the job. I felt weak in the knees and started to shake uncontrollably and tears started welling. The proteins and onions were in a pan on the corner of the stove.
• I started fumbling my way out thinking about what I am going to do... As I walked out the door I heard T. asking B. "is this it? is this happening?" with excitement and a grin on her face.
• As I was exiting there was only one person from the group that said good bye.
• I was walking on the road side (now this place looked like the roadside out of Lethbridge where there are a couple of trees on the side of the road) thinking about what happened and my heart was heavy, all the while wondering what I should tell my mom and what will my plans be.
• I was heading for this bar on the side of the road where a band was playing and the place was packed. Friendly faces all around and people were shaking hands with me.
• Then I started thinking about what just happened with all the sorrow and shocked and I woke up.

I will analyze this in another post and I will come back to this. But for now I need my rest, I start a new job in a couple of hours and for this to be happening, well, don't think I can really help it but to endure it.